She’s open, she’s honest, and she’s vulnerable. Those are three things that seem to echo repeatedly with every interview on and off screen done with Selena Gomez.

The latest interview with Vogue that dropped today (along with an absolutely beautiful photo shoot) is no different, as Selena gets real about her battle with Lupus and finding her way through fame.

 

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Miss Gomez touched on subjects like adapting to her fans lifestyles as they (and she) grew, as well as struggling with her confidence while on tour..

 

“Tours are a really lonely place for me,” she explains. “My self-esteem was shot. I was depressed, anxious. I started to have panic attacks right before getting onstage, or right after leaving the stage. Basically I felt I wasn’t good enough, wasn’t capable. I felt I wasn’t giving my fans anything, and they could see it—which, I think, was a complete distortion. I was so used to performing for kids. At concerts I used to make the entire crowd raise up their pinkies and make a pinky promise never to allow anybody to make them feel that they weren’t good enough. Suddenly I have kids smoking and drinking at my shows, people in their 20s, 30s, and I’m looking into their eyes, and I don’t know what to say. I couldn’t say, ‘Everybody, let’s pinky-promise that you’re beautiful!’ It doesn’t work that way, and I know it because I’m dealing with the same shit they’re dealing with. What I wanted to say is that life is so stressful, and I get the desire to just escape it. But I wasn’t figuring my own stuff out, so I felt I had no wisdom to share. And so maybe I thought everybody out there was thinking, This is a waste of time.”

 

 

 

Read the full interview HERE 

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